These many ways to stay continuously aware of where I am provides an odd contrast. On one hand, I am lulled by my slow but steady progress. On the other hand, I have become sharply aware that I am nearing the end. These feelings both build and deflate my anticipation.
Now and then, I see a marker that puts the remaining distance in better perspective. I passed one of those this afternoon. It was a small, wooden sign mounted on a tree, which simply said, “Kathdin 500 miles.”
Through regular checks of my trail app, I knew when I saw the sign it wasn’t placed in the correct spot. The distance of the trail changes slightly from one year to the next, but the sign had not been moved to match the current distance. Still, it was close enough.
Maybe because I knew of the inaccurate location or that 500 miles still seemed like a formidable number, I didn’t celebrate when I saw the sign. I lingered a few moments only to smile and contemplate. Reaching the end felt more possible than ever.